PLAY "BIG" ... Remembering Devin

I remember February 11th as if it was yesterday...
At work for what I thought would be a normal day,
Instead everything changed early that morning.

I spoke to Devin the night before..
I actually hung up on him because he was making fun of me,
and he wanted to eat Mom's meatloaf .
We were planning the next after school conditioning session.
Not much time was left before the season would start.

He would always say.. "got your back"
He was so excited to be on the sidelines.
I was so excited to have stolen him from the guys.
He had made an immediate impact on the girls...
We needed him.

I still have the voice mail he sent me,
saying he would accept the job!
His excitement was obvious...

I instantly thought of the girls,
some mourners for the first time.
I thought of how I could wrap my arms around them all,
and let them know we will travel this journey together.
We met, we talked, we shared, we cried.
We came together.
I held it together, tried to stay strong,
knowing I had to be a pillar for them to lean on.
(little did I know how they would soon return the favor)

I remember thinking how hard this could possibly be,
on his parents, his siblings, his family.
A young life taken so soon,
A life with so much still to give.
I remember going to the house...
Not knowing what to say.
Not knowing how to act.
Wanting to take away the pain,
Yet, knowing I couldn't.


It was almost as if God was preparing me...
for what was to come-

We played BIG in 2013.
We played for Devin.
I tried to do what we planned...
(minus the sitting on the chair, eating chips, and playing leap frog
I never really agreed to that... did I?)

Miss you BIG!
I know your up there with Gene laughing as I stress at lacrosse season starting.
Cheering us on as we head into 2014 (plus two angels watching over us)!